Food does not control me, or something like that. That is what I am trying to tell myself these days. I was doing so good with the whole grain free, dairy free, no processed shit kick that I was on. And when I let off a little so I could enjoy our beach trip, then my birthday, and well you know….life…I slowly started retreating back to old habits.
A bag of M&M’s somehow got in to my cart the past two weeks. Surely I wasn’t the one who put them in there, right?? A handful here and there, they don’t count. It’s not an entire serving. A frappucino because it is Tuesday and I hate Tuesdays? Why not!
Yeah, that’s what I am talking about. Those little choices that I used to not even be tempted by during the week are back and I am putting an end to them right now. Or well, after I finish the rest of these M&M’s I have.
Last week I confessed that I was able to purchase a pair of jeans in a smaller size. That was a great feeling. I rode that high for a week. Then yesterday I grabbed a pair of jeans by accident out of a stack of clothes that used to fit not because I was in a hurry. I literately threw them on and ran out the door. All day yesterday I was miserable, they were tight and uncomfortable at the waist. And the thing is, the legs and butt fit. Damn you eating!!! I thought to myself, yeah Nadine…eat some more of those M&M’s. A fat lot of good they are doing you.
The holiday season is quickly approaching. It is time to get back on track before it gets too out of hand! I want to be able to enjoy a slice of apple pie or a cup of hot chocolate during my favorite time of year. I cant enjoy those things if none of my clothes fit!
I am going to clean up my eating again. This past weekend I didn’t have an ounce of alcohol. That is the first thing I cut because drinking empty calories is the worst. We already have our meals planned out for this week, which aren’t terrible by any means…but two nights are not grain free. So that means starting next week I am going back to grain free during the week. I had so much success with that and I felt awesome when I was doing it. Why would I not want to feel awesome?
I also plan on cutting back down to just two cheat meals on the weekends. No mindless snacking on tortilla chips and salsa. No Whataburger at 10pm just because stops. Nada.
As far as work outs go, I have been getting up and working out every day. But besides the days that I run, I am not really pushing myself. I need to be giving my all and then some. every. single. workout. What’s the point of waking up at 4:30am if I am not giving my all? Back to structured weight training instead of free styling it like I have been doing.
So who is with me? Who is taking back control before the holidays?
For those of you who need some encouraging words…