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The Birth Story Part 2

We left off part one with the amnionfusion to take some pressure off the umbilical cord. Spoiler alert – it didn’t work.

They had to keep quitting the pitocin because her heart rate kept dropping. Every time they turned the pitocin off, my progress would start going backwards and the contractions would spread back out and I never dilated past 5cm.

The doctor finally came in and started talking other options. He said that if Zoe’s heart rate continued to drop during my contractions, he wanted to go ahead and get her. No reason to stress baby out anymore than needed. I told him that my birth plan was only to get the baby out safely, and if he felt a c section was the best option…then I was fine with it. He told me he really appreciated that attitude because it made it easier on him. and to hang tight for another 30 minutes to an hour to see how things would go.

I noticed that the nurse was going ahead and getting things prepped anyways, “just in case.” She looked at the contractions and heart rate again a few minutes later and immediately called the doctor back. I could tell by how fast she picked up her pace around the room that he was coming back to tell me a c section was happening sooner than later.

Sure enough, the moment he came in and looked at the printouts he said, “Ok, I don’t want to stress this baby girl out anymore. Let’s go in and get her!” Immediately the room filled with lots of people buzzing around, they were shoving scrubs at Chris and his mom was helping him get in to them. this became an emergency situation fast! I started to cry. I don’t know why? Maybe because I didn’t think it was going to happen like this. I mean, it is major surgery and I was certainly scared about that aspect but now I was worried about the baby too and I remember looking around the room and catching eye contact with Chris, my mom, my sister, my dad….and the tears just flowed and flowed. The last thing I remember happening before they all left the room was my dad coming up to my bed and kissing me on the forehead and telling me it was going to be ok.

It turns out, the reason her heart rate kept dropping during contractions was that the umbilical cord had gotten pushed down under her head and so every time I contracted, her head would go down on the umbilical cord and cut her off.

Next thing I know, I am being wheeled down to the operating room. It was so bright and so cold in there!!! I was shaking from the epidural and being scared. They had to hold my body down to start hooking me up to stuff in there because of how bad I was shaking. I remember one of the doctors in there telling me it was ok and that Chris was going to be coming in shortly and standing next to me. Then I started to feel really out of it. I remember having the hardest time keeping my eyes opened but I could hear everyone in the room running around, ripping things opened, shouting back and forth at each other, and then next thing I know….the doctor is telling Chris to stand behind my left shoulder.

I remember hearing Chris’s voice next to me saying “Is she ok?!?!” And I felt his hand on my shoulder. I remember hearing the doctor telling him that I was a little out of it but that I could hear everything that was going on.

It seemed like a second later they were telling me that Zoe was here. I remember them telling Chris “come on over here with us daddy!” and I could hear Zoe crying. I heard them calling her birth at 10:20am.

Then what seemed like one more second later, Chris was back behind me and he placed Zoe on my chest on her side and was holding her up on me with one hand and someone saying “Open your eyes Nadine, your daughter wants to meet you!” It took all my concentration to open my eyes but when I did, Zoe was staring right at me. I remember saying “Hi Zoe” and her and I just looked at each other for a few minutes and I remember feeling instantly so full of love and joy for this little girl staring at me. And even though I was completely out of it, I focused on just keeping eye contact with her and not wanting to look away for even half a second. What seemed like maybe a few minutes (???) went by and then they told me that Chris was going to go with Zoe and the nurses and they were going to finish up with my surgery so that I could go have skin to skin back in the recovery room.

I remember the two doctors/nurses standing up near my head telling me what was going on, and that they were going to turn me to one side and it was going to feel like I was going to fall off the table but not to worry because they had me…and then they were going to flip me on my other side. Then I remember them telling me that they were going to shoot something into my back and it was going to feel like cold water. I remember them picking me up off the operating table and putting me back in the bed and wheeling me back to my room.

When they opened the door to the room, I remember seeing Chris sitting in a chair holding Zoe. The site immediately made me wake up and be more aware of what was going on.

The nurse got Zoe and brought her over to me and asked me if I was ready to start her first feeding. And just like that, I was holding little Zoe Jane and nursing her for the first time. She latched instantly and I remember listening to her little noises and knowing that everyone was right about what they say about having a child. That you never knew you could feel so much love for someone so tiny that you just met, but it was instant. And strong. And fierce.

Chris went out to the waiting room to let everyone know that Zoe was here, that she was 7 lbs 20 inches and that we were doing good and he would come back for them soon. He showed them a picture of her on his phone and that is when his dad captured everyone getting to see her for the first time. This picture is everything to me!!!


I think we were back in the room with her alone doing skin to skin for about an hour and then I told Chris that I was ready for our family to come back. I felt bad they had all stayed over night and hadn’t been able to see us and I knew that they were dying to meet Zoe. The nurse told me that they could come back for a few minutes to see her, and then they were going to move me to our suite and that our family could go wait on the 6th floor in the waiting room until we were settled in our room up there.


I remembered the smile on each of their faces as they entered the room and looked right at Zoe laying in my arms. My mom was the first person to hold her from me and then Chris’s mom. Each of them took their turn and got pictures with her before we moved to our suite.

And just like that, this tiny little girl came in to the world and stole all of our hearts. All 7 pounds 20 inches of pure sweetness! Her apgar score was an 8 or 9, and I remember feeling so proud of her passing her first test with flying colors 🙂

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  • Reply Biana December 21, 2016 at 6:55 am

    Oh my gosh I got tears in my eyes when chris came over and said your daughter wants to meet you – I’m so happy that even though it didn’t go according to plan, she’s safe and healthy as are you! xo, Biana –BlovedBoston

  • Reply kathy @ more coffee, less talky December 21, 2016 at 7:55 am

    awww!!!! love this! it’s so precious when you finally meet your baby knowing it’s part you and part your husband! ZOE IS SO CUTE I CAN HARDLY HANDLE IT.

  • Reply Jess December 21, 2016 at 7:58 am

    Oh my goodness, go Zoe! So precious, I am struggling not to cry. Babies are the most wonderful thing. I’m so happy she got out safely and healthy! Sounds like she’s got an awesome family to take care of her.

  • Reply alyssa December 21, 2016 at 8:51 am

    How brave and awesome you are, Nadine! Good for you for being so strong in a scary situation and hooray little one got here healthy, safe and sound. Thanks for sharing your story!

  • Reply Andrea @ Living On Cloud Nine December 21, 2016 at 8:52 am

    OK, I teared up and I got chills when you talked about so looking into Zoe’s eyes and that instant love. I will never forget that and I swear there is no other feeling on earth that even comes close! I am so sorry things went not the way you planned you were so scared, I can only imagine but the light and sweetness of your baby girl
    erases it all. Thank you so much for sharing the birth story with all of us! Hugs!

  • Reply Audrey December 21, 2016 at 8:52 am

    Now I’m sitting at my desk bawling. This is so so sweet. I’m so glad you wrote this down so that you can remember the events AND how you felt each step along the way. (Although I doubt you’ll ever forget that…) The moments that you got scared or Chris was checking on you are the absolute sweetest. Congratulations, again!!

  • Reply Sierra December 21, 2016 at 11:13 am

    Nadine, I got chills reading this and tears in my eyes. This is so sweet and so special to have all of these memories, feelings, and emotions documented. Meeting your little one is the most amazing feeling in the world and you’re so right, however a baby needs to get here the safest way is the best way. She’s already so blessed to have an amazing momma like you! Beautifully Candid

  • Reply chelsea jacobs December 21, 2016 at 11:19 am

    This made me cry! I’m so happy for you. The picture of your family looking at her picture for the first time is so priceless!

  • Reply Lauren @ Oh Hey! I Like That! December 21, 2016 at 11:58 am

    You are such a champion! I’m so excited that Zoe Jane is in the world! How are you feeling now??

  • Reply Rebecca Jo December 21, 2016 at 12:12 pm

    It does get overwhelming when things start moving fast. I dont blame you one second for all the tears going in. The emotion is on 100000% at that point.
    So glad you got good skin on skin time after your c-section.
    I never realized thats how your delivery went. Hope you are healing well!!!

  • Reply Mattie @ Northwest Native December 21, 2016 at 12:50 pm

    I just have to say THANK GOD you finished today instead of keeping us hanging for a week or a month or whatever! I almost cried reading this! What a beautiful day. I think it’s so smart to only go in planning to deliver a healthy baby, however you have to do it. I feel like some women have such high expectations of what they want to happen when they deliver and then it’s hard for them to accept what ends up happening.

  • Reply Ashley @ The Wandering Weekenders December 21, 2016 at 2:12 pm

    I can’t imagine how scary that must have been to go through all of that! It sounds like you had a great set of doctors though, and that you knew to trust them! Zoe is so precious, and that picture of your family seeing her picture for the first time is amazing! I’m glad that both of y’all are home now and that you’re healing from your c-section!

  • Reply Kate @ Green Fashionista December 21, 2016 at 3:42 pm

    Such a sweet story, and no surprise that you had a very similar experience to Serena and I just a few weeks before because birthday twinning! So scary and surreal yet so sweet to go through all that and in such a hurry. And I couldn’t agree with you more on the first skin to skin and nursing session, it’s amazing the feelings that come rushing in. She’s perfect! Enjoy all the baby snuggles and coos <3

  • Reply Emily @ Martinis & Bikinis December 21, 2016 at 11:20 pm

    My goodness! I swear most of my friends that delivered recently had to have C-sections. It sucks it has to be decided so last minute but anything for Zoe to arrive safely! I hope the healing process is going okay for you and getting better each day. I know Kate is feeling much better and a couple weeks later.

  • Reply Katie Elizabeth December 22, 2016 at 8:44 am

    LOVE this! Sitting here with tears in my eyes! There is seriously nothing like it, holding your baby for the first time. And good for you for having the right attitude when it came to getting baby out safely. You are a rockstar!!

  • Reply December 22, 2016 at 9:04 am

    I love that your birth plan was to get her here safely. I think the best decision was made and she’s just perfect!! Stolen everyone’s hearts for sure!!!

  • Reply Carly December 22, 2016 at 11:58 am

    all of the tears! Looove that photo of everyone seeing her for the first time on chris’s phone! she is SO precious!

  • Reply Jenna December 23, 2016 at 2:15 am

    Oh, wow! I’m glad you and baby came through everything safely. That picture of Chris… The expression on his face is just precious. I can see why you like it so much. She’s beautiful, Nadine!

  • Reply kristen December 28, 2016 at 12:54 pm

    oh my goodness, i’m not crying, you’re crying! why am i so emotional.
    i am SO happy Zoe arrived safe and sound. that is 100% the only thing that matters. so happy for you guys!

  • Reply Rach @ This Italian Family December 28, 2016 at 8:48 pm

    Oh tears! So glad she arrived safely! And that picture of them all looking at the phone is just perfection. Love it! Congratulations again, Nadine!

  • Reply Katy January 6, 2017 at 11:29 pm

    LOVELY. I may have watched “What to Expect When You’re Expecting” tonight (Jack’s outta town and I wanted soemthing girly – no baby here lol) and so perfect that I decided to catch up on some blogs!! All the feels. She’s beautiful and perfect!!!!! Congratulations!

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