4 Years

It is hard to believe that I have a four year old! It feels like the fastest four years of my life. It has been such a joy and privilege getting to watch her grow and change. Her personality has always been strong from the very start. She fills any room she is in, and I love that about her. She never meets a stranger, finds something to celebrate every single day, and is the girliest girl I have ever met. She is really good about saying thank you for every day things, and makes my heart swell with pride when I hear it.

She is also incredibly stubborn, very dramatic and funny as hell. She has me cracking up every day. That is when I am not losing my shit because there is too much of Chris and I in her. Arguing with a tiny, irrational version of yourself is not for the faint of hearts. I think most parents can relate to that.

Over the past year, she has learned all her shapes, letters, some numbers. She understands the concepts of patterns, same and different, big and small, seasons, items that belong together and ones that don’t, can count to 20 (most of the time) and can color in the lines pretty darn well. It is amazing how much she has learned just since we have been home in March. I am no teacher, and she would probably be thriving even more in school with professionals who aren’t distracted by their full time job most of the time just squeezing in lessons for 15-20 minutes each day when I can….but that is where we are this year. I am thankful that she still has another year and a half before she starts kindergarten, based on when her birthday falls. I feel like having that extra year will have her extra prepared.

Today I am going to do everything I can to make her day extra special given the circumstances. I mean, she is stuck at home with me again, for like the 275th day in a row or something like that. She wont get to have a real party with all her friends, and it is something that she has expressed being upset about several times over the last few months as we have gotten closer to the day without anything really changing. Back in March, I never dreamed of spending Chris’s birthday in May still at home. In May, I thought for sure my birthday in August would be back to normal. I sympathized with friends over the spring and summer who couldn’t have parties for their kiddos and made sure to send presents so they still felt special on their day…never thinking it would be me in December, yet here we are.

I decorated our dining room last night to surprise her. I plan to use the letter, unicorn and rainbow stuff in her bedroom and playroom after.

I hope that when Zoe looks back on her 4th birthday, she remembers all the extra time we got to spend together this year. I hope she remembers all the laughs, the random every day parties to celebrate anything and everything, the extra magic that the holiday season has brought us, and understands the decisions that we have made to keep our family as safe as we can.

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  • Reply Andrea Nine December 4, 2020 at 7:57 am

    Having the pleasure of meeting Zoe in person, I know how amazing she is! Yes, I hope she enjoys four on the fourth to the fullest and I know she will because you are the best mom and you will make it so special! BIG BIRTHDAY HUGS!

  • Reply laura December 4, 2020 at 8:53 am

    Happy birthday to my FAVORITE little lady!! I miss that little nugget so much!! I know she’s going to have the best birthday ever, because YOU are the best ever!! Happy Birthday Z!! Just add another one to the list of missed celebrations we’re going to celebrate when we can finally see each other! Love you and Z!!

  • Reply Lindsay Latimer December 4, 2020 at 9:04 am

    I know you will make her day so special. Hope it’s a great one, sweet Zoe!

  • Reply Biana December 4, 2020 at 12:12 pm

    Happy happy 4th birthday to your sweet girl! I know that today will be so special for her because of everything you guys are doing! xo, Biana

  • Reply Sierra December 4, 2020 at 12:28 pm

    Happy Birthday, Zoe!! She is such an adorable little girl. I know it can be so hard when we can’t give them what their little heart is hoping for, but I’m sure her day will be extra special because she’ll have so much love from you. I hope you have a great weekend!

  • Reply SMD December 4, 2020 at 1:09 pm

    Happy happy birthday Zoe! I know it will be fun, you all have made the most out of this year.

  • Reply ShootingStarsMag December 4, 2020 at 3:09 pm

    Happy Birthday to Zoe!! I’m sure she’ll have a great day and feel super loved. Quarantine birthdays are no fun, but it looks like pretty much everyone is going to get one. She’ll have great, big parties in the future and this will be just a unique memory!!


  • Reply Kate December 4, 2020 at 3:16 pm

    Happy Birthday to your sweet girl! Hope she is having the BEST day! And lol at counting to 20 – Serena says “eleven-teen” after twelve <3

  • Reply Rebecca Jo Vincent December 4, 2020 at 7:14 pm

    I’m sure she will hold so many memories of the time with you when she grows up. It really is a special time.
    Happy Birthday to your baby girl. I cant even wrap my mind around that she’s 4. Seriously. It cant be real.

  • Reply Kristin December 6, 2020 at 8:10 am

    Happy Birthday to Zoe!!! I’m sure she was glad to have an extra special day.

    Something I think about is that kids her age won’t remember this at all. It’s the middle school kids I tend to feel the worst for. Middle school is hard enough.

  • Reply Danielle December 7, 2020 at 11:42 am

    Happy Birthday Zoe! I am still having a hard time telling the girls that they won’t have a party for their birthday either. They understand, but they still want a party. I am glad that you made her day extra special.

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