Day 17: A favorite photo of yourself and why
This is my favorite photo because this was taken right after Chris proposed to me at Stone Mountain, Georgia. Best. Night. Ever. 🙂
Day 16: Something difficult about your lot in life and how you’re working to overcome it.
How to deal with your “lot in life.” What does lot in life mean exactly. I mean, I know what it means, but I wanted to look up the meaning to answer the question for myself.
It’s a Biblical reference. Not to push religious belief, but the saying comes from the story in Genesis where Abraham and Lot part ways and Lot, not believing in Abraham’s knowledge of God, seeks his own future and is tortured for it. Parts ways with what God has commanded multiple times and throughout his life seeks the wrong path. Therefore, in his life he finds trouble throughout. Many in this day in age who find trouble (perceived or otherwise) in life, claim it is their “Lot” in life that they must endure. – http://wiki.answers.com/Q/What_does_the_idiom_it’s_my_lot_in_life_mean
This is another one of the deep ones. This is why I love this link up. Not only do your readers get to learn things about you, but you also learn about yourself. This is giving me the opportunity to write about how I am feeling at this stage of my life, and years from now I can look back and remember how I felt, what my views were, etc.
Everyone experiences difficulties in life. Some are to a further degree than others. I have been sitting here staring at my screen trying to figure out how to put into words what is in my head. I wasn’t dealt a terrible hand in life. I am thankful to be fairly healthy, my parents were together when I was younger, even though we moved around a lot I always managed to adjust, I have a wonderful husband, a job, great friends. There are a few things that I deal with internally that I am constantly trying to overcome.
I have anxiety. I do not take medicine for it, it isn’t so crippling that I can’t function in society….but it does effect me in ways that I don’t expect people without anxiety to understand. I get anxious about stupid things: confrontation, being in a crowded place, being in unknown situations, making big decisions. I get anxious about things that I can’t control like bad weather or having something bad happen to loved ones. I get anxious when I have big decisions to make for myself.
I have insecurities. I am insecure about my weight. I have a thyroid problem and serious vitamin deficiencies that hinder my energy levels. I lost 10 lbs, and have 20 more to go for my first goal. Currently I am in a fight with myself, I keep losing and gaining the same 5 lbs. It is so very frustrating and discouraging. I eat so healthy during the week. I count calories and try not to exceed a certain amount. During the week I feel like I am always hungry, like I am not allowing myself to have enough calories but when I allow myself 200-300 more and feel satisfied, the scale reflects that and goes up. I need to up my physical activity. I am building myself up to join a gym again. I have promised myself to join the last week of May. I used to work out at LA Fitness when I lived in Atlanta and I got comfortable going every day. Right now I am embarrassed to go to a gym and have other people judge my physical ability, even though I don’t pay attention to others there it still makes me insecure about others seeing me. I won’t join my co-workers when they go to spin and body pump classes because I don’t want them seeing how weak I am. I love going out with my husband and having fun….but I will stand in my closet for hours trying to figure out what to wear because I hate the way EVERYTHING looks on me. I am self conscious walking across a crowded place wondering how many people think “ew” when they see me. I have huge anxiety about being at the beach soon, swim suit season is scary.
I am scared of failing. I am so scared of failing professionally, that I hold myself back from being successful. I am so thankful that I have a job, however, I am so bored. I am not being challenged at all, unless you are talking about patience tolerance for bullshit….I have built my patience up greatly! Ha! I know that I am so much better than what I do. I know that I can handle a great amount of responsibility. I have amazing work ethic. I am great at multi-tasking, handling deadlines, working together on a team, taking the lead on things, doing what it takes to get things done…yet I am so scared to try and find something better. I don’t want to be someones assistant the rest of my life, I just really don’t. Yet….I am so scared of stepping out of my “comfort zone” and being successful. I am working really hard on this currently. I am trying to figure out what it is that I want to do. I want to do something that I enjoy, that I don’t hate myself for every day. I watched my dad hate his job his entire life, being so miserable with it…and I don’t want to be that. It starts effecting other parts of your life, because let’s face it, you spend more time at work than you do anywhere else so you need to at least be OK with it! They wouldn’t call it work if it was fun, but you don’t want to be completely miserable. I constantly ask myself what is it that I want to do. What will make me happy and fill successful.
There are so many things in my life that I work on every day. Dealing with anxiety, building up confidence to be happy with myself physically and professionally.
Today is day 15: A Day in the Life
I am going to give you a glimpse into a day in my life during the work week.
I wake up at 5:05 am because it sounds way better than 5:00 am, of course!
Every morning starts off with a cup of coffee, duh!
I take a shower, do my make up, get our lunches packed, let the dogs out, eat breakfast, get my blog post ready if I don’t have one scheduled out, dry my hair, straighten my hair, get dressed, bring the dogs back in and deal with their hyper shenanigans for a few minutes…then head on out for work!
Shenanigans, I tell ya! These 2 are the masters of them!
Some mornings I am lucky, and traffic isn’t too bad. This was this morning, not bad at all!
Some mornings look like this 🙁
Whoa, calm down Justin (Timerberlake) this is my exit…let’s bring it back down!
Finally made it to the office. Sun, you are a little bright. A disgusted sigh that I am not a millionaire that doesn’t have to report to someone….and in I go!
Most of my day is spend in this little corner.
I have to get in lunch with my co-workers, of course! They keep me sane.
Then it is back in the car
Cook dinner for my man 🙂
More puppy shenanigans. Careful, this one is ferocious!
Go to bed, and start all over the next day!
What does your day look like?
If it makes you happy
Then it can’t be that bad
If it makes you happy
Then why the hell are you so sad
Don’t pretend that you didn’t sing along to that song!!!
Don’t pretend that you didn’t sing along to that song!!!
Day 14: Ten Things That Make You REALLY Happy
1. My husband – He makes my life complete. I love that we can be silly together.
2. Gracie and Mac – My dogs warm my heart. They are amazing and are my babies. Always excited to see me, always ready for kisses and snuggles. Always cheer me up when I am down. I can’t tell you how many tears they have licked away.
3. My family – My parents, sister, in-laws…they are all so wonderful and always there!
4. My friends – I am so blessed with wonderful friends! I don’t know what I would do without my weekly lunch date with Amanda…or my shopping time with the girls! I am also so thankful for my bloggy friends, some of them I even get to hang out with in real life!
5. Christmas time – I love love LOVE Christmas time! I start listening to Christmas music earlier than I would like to admit. I never stop listening to it. Everything about the holiday makes me happy. Time with family, the reason for the season, the decorations, the flavored drinks at Starbucks, giving gifts, the movies!!
6. Baby Laughs – Nothing warms my heart like hearing a baby or toddler laughing so hard they end up squealing!
7. Weddings – Something about 2 people committing their lives to each other just makes me so happy.
8. Shopping – (Retail therapy) Whatever you call it….it makes me totally happy!
9. Cookie Cake – The way to my heart!
10. The Beach – Who isn’t happy at the beach?!
What makes you happy?
Dear Public:
I am sorry that….I am not sorry for the following:
- I take ridiculous amounts of pictures of my dogs and shamelessly post them all over my corner of the interwebz
- I may or may not have some road rage and will give you a nasty look for being stupid in your car
- That in keeping with the theme of said road rage…if you follow too closely behind me for more than just a minute I will brake check your ass
- I have a hard time making the easy decisions in life, you know…like where to eat or if I should buy something or not
- I speak fluently in sarcasm and if you haven’t figured that out by now, it may be too late for you
- If I haven’t had a cup of coffee in the morning, my brain may not be fully functioning and it may take me a few extra
minutesseconds to process some things - I get stupid excited about the little things in life
- I can multitask and others can’t (this isn’t that hard people…)
- I rock at Mario Kart
- I can’t control some of my facial reactions